So naturally, things started to become more serious. I only saw her twice before that. Vanessa came to our youth meetings where I was leading worship and preaching. I need God to be convincing. Poor me. Things were going great with my girlfriend, but every time I saw Vanessa, I wanted to get to know her and find out all the excuses why I should not be with her. Why are you asking me to be with her? So, can we please drop this?
I had to end the relationship because we were going nowhere. Actually, we were going somewhere! We were going to hit a huge wall that would leave us crushed. The relationship was over. We started to talk daily. I found myself talking to her every single day. So, I did and that led us to talk daily again.
I went on a vacation to Dubai and the day after I returned, she invited me to accompany her, her brother, and his wife as they were going to a village in Lebanon with a lake and a farm. During the party, one of my friends took her away to take some photos of her. I had a strange feeling that I have never felt before, which was jealousy. Why are they alone? Why her? I sent her a text if she would like to come and sit next to me. But I knew this would never happen because after dinner we would be listening to a live band, cutting the cake, talking with friends, and then go home.
So, we sat there for 2 more hours talking about our personal lives since childhood. I saw the similarities in our lives. The challenges we faced. We were both survivors of multiple crises. I looked at her and I understood what she had been through. It was amazing to see how God was working on the both of us without us even knowing. In Vanessa I found all the things I have been praying for. I just had to look deeper past the surface. We had a lot of challenges. We even came to a place where things could have ended.
We hated the circumstances, but somehow, we kept remembering that it was God that brought us together. We are planning to get engaged this year by the grace of God even through all the circumstances in Lebanon. We are just believing that God will provide for us the best life we can ever pray and believe for. I met Joe in the youth meeting. I liked going there even though we are in different churches.
